what was that?

don't you hate it when people keep interrupting you while you're trying to talk? it could be about anything, something stupid or something serious, and they always find a way to interrupt. whether it be to make a stupid comment or give some advice, it doesn't matter because they still interrupt! it really bothers me, especially if they are the ones who asked you something but then they don't let you finish. so i try to listen to people like i want to be listened to (golden rule thing you know?) and i try not to interrupt. yea i still do sometimes, but i try not to and i think i do a pretty good job at it. interrupting someone when they're talking gives them the feeling that you aren't interested in what you're saying. there's been many times where i've been trying tot ell someone something and either someone else interrupts us or the person i'm talking to interrupts, and i never get to finish sayign whatever i what saying. it always makes me feel like they don't really care. not that they don't care about me necessarily, but they don't really care about what i'm saying. but yea, anyways

idk my bff jill

yea, i've got alot of thoughts going on right now, and it's like whoa! but yea, me and kevin won't be going to the movies tomorrow because he's sick. he needs to get better before the surgery too because i don't know if they'll do it when he's sick or not. it's got somethign to do with his stomach, that's all i know. poor guy. he needs to rest more and eat better, he doesn't eat alot of the time which could be part of the problem, but i don't know. anyways, i hope he gets to feelin better.

that's really all i wanna talk about. all the other thoughts are just random one-liners that don't really need much attention, or theyre really long and i don't want to get into it right now, so yea. i like being able to type without looking at the keyboard, although sometimes it doesn't work out so well

7 things

i've got 7 Things by Miley Cyrus stuck in my head right now. i really like that song. at first i didn't like it so much. but when i actually listened to the words and the message behind them, i really like it now. it's sooooo true...guys can be the biggest jackasses to us, but in the end we still love them for whatever reason. whether they're a good guy or a bad guy, it's hard not to love them. anyways, i really like that song =]

all in a day's work

everybody left today. so now we're just chillin' out and gettin the house cleaned up. washing blankets and sheets and towels and all that good stuff. my sister is also moving out of my room, we've been roomies for the past few nights lol. the first few nights we watched movies and listened to music, but last night wejust kidna didn't talk or anything, just did our own thing and went to sleep.

having the baby here has kinda made me want a baby of my own, not now of course, cuz that would be hell. but i was holding him last night. i was laying on my moms "bed" and he was laying on top of me asleep, and it just felt really good! it made me think of how it would be if i had my own kid. right now, it would be hell. i would get very little sleep and have to care for the baby all the time and try to do school and chores and juggle friends and family and stuff. it's not worth having a baby right now, which is good cuz i'm waiting til i get married to have sex anyways. but when i do get married, i really do want a kid of my own. to care for and love. and ya, even then i would get very little sleep and have to take care of the baby and juggle family and friends and whatnot, but then it would e easier. id be older, more mature, have help (id have help now too but yea). yea....i can't wait for that =]

but as for now, babysitting little kids will have to do, lol. lindsay and tristan should be coming over later.

i've been making bead cats! well i did yesterday at least. i made 3, 1 for angie, 1 for my aunt stacy, and 1 for rachel. it took me awhile, but i did it, now im tryign to make this bracelt thingy but it doesn't make any sense to me, so ima ask my mom for help.

oh! on friday me and kevin will be together for 5 months!! =] we're gonna go see Space Chimps on thursday because of it. we would go friday, but hes having his wisdom teeth removed on friday, so yea. poor baby....but it'll make him feel better after its all done and over with, so it's a good thing.

well i think thats really it for now, so yea, laters!

oh! p.s. lol....i've been reading this book called Hero, and it's really good. the main character is a gay superhero and he's tryign to learn how to use his powers and stuff. it's a really good book. id recomend it to someone =]

beautiful ♥

the one thing every girl wants to be called is beautiful. yea, we like to be called hot and sexy and all that good stuff, but being called beautiful is one of the best compliments a guy can say to you. to me, the impression that it gives off is that they dont just want you in a sexual way, the impression that hot and sexy give off, but that they want you for you, and they truly think you look beautiful. that's my opinion at least. kevin has been calling me beautiful alot latley, and i really love it =] hes so awesome!

whoa

hey guys...and girls lol

i know i havent really been updatign too much recently but we have alot of company right now so i havent really gotten the time. so yea. just thought id say that realyl quick update!

later

cutest kittens ever!

ok, so you know how i said most of elmo's kittens look like their father? not exactly true. at least one of them looks exactly like the father, completley black and striped that brownish color. and at least one of them looks pretty much exactly like elmo. the other three look like a mix. either eay, they are so cute!! elmo's been a good mommy so far. hasn't been going very far away at al, only to get food and water, and if she hears them cry she runs back in to check on them. she does sit on them alot tho which i find very funny, lol. she sits on the mand they all start to cry and she looks at me like what do i do? and so she stands up and trys to rearrange herself lol. too cute. anyways, hope yall enjoy these new pics =]

i'm a grandma!!

elmo had her kittens!!!! i went out side cuz my mom wanted to clean piggie's cage out there and elmo came out of her bed and she was SKINNY! i was like whoa, elmo did you have your kittens? and sure enough, there 5 kittens in her bed!! they are ADORABLE! most of the mlook like their father, who must have been black and striped a brownish color, but theres one that looks pretty much just like her. they are so cute! she either had them last ngiht or this morning cuz yesterday she was still pregnant lol. anyways, we're gonna clean all the blankets in her bed so they aren't smelly and stained and stuff, but yea
im so proud of her!! elmos a mommy! =]

i love my daddy

so i watched secret life and supernany last night. i really really love secret life, it's like my own general hospital =] lol. and supernanny just kinda reminded me of my own dad, because there was this 13 year old girl and her and her dad fought constantly. like Jo had said, the relationship between a father and a daughter is very important. just the other day when my dad was about to leave for work he gave me a hug (which is normal) but then he did something out of the ordinary....he kissed my arm, and i don't know....it just felt really good cuz he's never done that b4..

we also sent off my driver's ed stuff so i can get my license next month. i had to write a paragraph of the "in-class" experience and a paragraph about the driving experience. anyways, in the driving paragraph i was saying how much i liked it because i got to spend time with my dad and we have a closer relatoinship now and because of his teaching i feel confident in my own driving abilities. i don't know if he took seriously or not, especially after belinda said that it was a good "suck-up" paragraph to both the driver's ed people and my dad (not her exact words). but i wasn't sucking up. it's how i truly felt....and i hope that he knows that regardless of what was said afterwards.

i love belinda andall, i've known her since i was 7 or 8 or soemthing like that, idk.....but honestly it's gettting to the point to where she bugs me. just little things like talking really loud so i can't hear the tv (i understand that she has stuff to talk about, but she doesn't have to talk so loud!) or things like the other day when saying what i wrote was "sucking-up" when it wasn't. idk...

anyways, i guess i should go now, so i'll update later....i don't know when later will be though, sometime in the future lol

just a thought...again lol

i was laying in bed today thinking, and i realized that there are no centepedes in texas....nor scorpions like there are in new mexico. but in new mexico, you hardly ever see any water bugs/cockroaches, but you seem alot in texas. i guess it's just the different climates. different animals/bugs can only live in certain places. but we as humans are the only animals who have the ablilities to live in each and every climate, no matter how good or bad it may seem.

let's go to the mall!

i wanna go to the mall. i feel like spenindg my money lol, and i havent been to the mall in a while. i really wanna go to Claires and see what kinda cool earrings they have. if not, then i'll prolly get the last post secret book. either way, i need to pay the mall a little visit....

speak up

so i just finished reading "We're Not Monsters" and wow...thats a very scary yet helpful book. it talks about alot of teen problems, things teens do and why they do it, and how to get help and make it stop. the things that got to me the most were teen killers, suicides, and infanticides...

it's really amazing at how many teens want to kill and injury other people. there are many different reasons for this, but the stories you read about are horrifying. as are the stories you hear about suicide. i almost started crying while reading about the suicide part because it was like reality hit...so many teens feel this way, and it's scary! did you know that more females than males try to commit suicide but more males succed? this is because girls use less intense methods such as cutting or hanging or poisioning, while guys go for guns. it really is a very scary thing. it's also very sad and amazing how many teen girls ditch their newborn babies. i think it's a very selfish and cruel thing to do. you were the one who had sex, you should be responsible for the consequences. ditcing the baby is the easy way out, a way to not have to deal with it. i also learned though that some girls are so in denial about being pregnant that they don't remember being pregnant, giving birth, or ditching the baby...sad isn't it?

the book also talked about juvenile sexual offenders, teens who have affairs with adults, and people who injure themselves. if you know anyone who you think might be going through ANY of these things,or you know that they are, please seek help with a trusted adult. you could save a life

joker

so today was the last day of VBS, brianna got to go today! yay! and kevin was there too =] he helped me with whatever i was doing at the moment, it was cool =] we also went to the movies later with his mom. we saw The Dark Knight. AWESOME movie! i suggest you go see it =]

anyway, mikes brother and his family came in today. omg, tristan is so tiny!! like no kidding! but he is only a couple weels old.

anyway, i dont feel like tyoing right now so later

awwwww

so the babysittign lady showed up today and we started keeping her two kids, Lyndsay (sp?) who is 3 and Tristan who is 1. i thought i would like tristan better at first because hes a baby and lyndsay was really shy at first. but it turns out that i like lyndsay better, lol, shes adorable!! shes got the cutest accent and shes always talking and shes's just awesome lol. she told me she loved me today haha. too bad we only get her every other week =/. but i do get to see her tomorrow =] we get tristan every week though so yea. he drools alot lol. hes pretty quiet unless he wants soemthing and he gets into everything lol, but hes kewl too. the thing i love most about them, they have PERSONALITY!

blast off to cosmic city!

so i got home from VBS about 20-30 minutes ago. my sister still hasn't gone again, maybe tomorrow she'll get to. mike wasn't there today either, said he wasn't feelin good but that he'd be there tomorrow. i think i helped more today than i have all week. a little bit after i got there i was helpin miss barbara make the "Boats Afloat" snack. basically it was a cup with pudding (died blueish-green) then whipped cream then brownie and an animal cracker with spinkles on top (they eat it with a spoon). it was kinda messy to make. im really surprised i didnt get any on my WHITE shirt...its brave to where white to VBS with all thje food and paint and stuff goin on there lol. but anyways, we got alll the snacks made early and the crafts people didn't need me to transport anything today so i kinda just had nothing to do. so i just hung out with aly and jestin and daniel i helped daniel tear out pages for one class and at the end i helped aly in her class with the little kids, omg they are sooo cute!! and yea thats about it i guess. tomorrow after its over they're having lunch for the helpers. i dont know if im going or not tho.

some peoples are coming over pretty soon for babysitting. hopefully. if they do end up coming, they're gonna leave their kids here today so yea. i dont kno if kevin can come over today yet. i hope so! i really wanna see him!

little bunnies

so earlier when i was doing my cross stitch, my sister came in with her needlework stuff (i dont think its cross stitching cuz it's different than mine) and she wanted me to show her how to do it. so i showed her but i dont think she fully got it. i think when it comes to stuff like that it takes her a little longer to figure it out, which there's nothing wrong with thtt except she gets too frustrated with it and gives up instead of trying again. or she wants you there with her every step of the way, which is how she's gonna be with this. she told me she didn't want to do it if i wasn't in the room in case she messed up. so i told her that its ok, shell just have to undo it. anyways, i hope that eventually she'll start learning to do it on her own, not that i mind helping her, but idk, it's kind of an independence thing. it took me a while before i stopped asking my mom to help me with this and that on my cross stitching, and sometimes i still do, but for the most part i can do it on my own and fix my own mistakes and stuff. it's a good feeling to be able to do it on your own you know? anyways....

so the other day my mom took christian and went to the store and brianna and mike were watching videos on the computer, so i took brandon into his room and we played memory math and sorry. and then im always doing stuff with brianna, whether it be just watching tv, reading together (different books), or her talking to me or whatever. and the other day christian asked me to read him a book, but i wasn;t feelin too hot so i said not right now. so when he camein here earlier i asked him what book he wanted me to read the other day. so he went and got it and we read that one, and then he got another, and halfway through that brandon joined us, and then we got another, and about halfway through that mike asked if they wanted to go play still, so christian went with him but bran stayed until the book was finished. it's pretty cool to read to your little sibs. makes you feel important in a way lol. but not only that, it's cool to spend one-on-one time with them, which was my point in this whole paragraph. i may not do it as often as i should, but i enjoy the times that we do. i remember at one point i wanted to take each of them seperatly to a mive, just me and them, but i never did cuz i never had the money or the ride (since it prolly would have been in irving) lol. but yea, maybe i will eventually. when i can drive =] haha

im getting alot done on my cross stitch!! theres not really that much left to do. except for the backstitching, that might take a while. but it'll def. be done b4 christmas!

just a thought

just because you don't like someone doesn't mean you shouldn't be nice to them, especially ifthey're being nice to you. there's actually a few people who i just don't like for whatever reason, but i still try to be nice to them because we're supposed to love everyone....

i wish everyone would see it that way. people would be alot less insulted because of it

hello planet pluto

day 2 of VBS was actually better than day 1, lol, just because i was feeeling better today than i was yesterdya though. we did pretty much the same thing as yesterday, except i actually helped a little more this time. oh, me and mike were making lemonade and we had to tatse it right, so he got a dixie cup and he went to fill it up, but he dropped it in the jug, lol, and then we couldn't find it so he just stuck his hand in it and searched for it, lol. omg! that was sooooo funny, i was laughin so hard. and the ni got to ride on the cart lol, just cuz i can =] but yea, it was fun. my sister couldn't go (so i got to walk by myself =] i listened to my ipod, yea yea!) cuz she wasn't feelin good, maybe tomorrow, we'll see...oh! they had these snacks called Planet Bites and basicaly it's rice krispie treats made with fuity pebbles instead of rice krispies....they are gooooood lol

we've got company coming in this weekend, carlos angie, alyssa, and tristan (he's just 2 weeks old!!) it'll be kew

poor kevin, he's still not feelin good =( he did go to school today though, so he's feelin a lil bit better. he was gonna come over today but because tristan is coming over this wekend we can't have those "sick" germs (lol) in the house, so he couldnt =( hopefully i'll see him soon though, cuz i miss him

anyways, that's it for now i guess, i should go do my chores =]

p.s. thanks to those of you who leave comments! (and those of you who read, but if you don't leave comments, how will i know if you're reading?)

we're not monsters

so i finished the book that i was reading, the girlfriend project, and i started another one while the boys were taking baths. It's called "We're Not Monsters" and its not like an actually story like i normally read, but it's the true stories of real teens. it's why teens do what they do, murder, suicide, sex, that kinda stuff. i think it's got statistics and stuff too. idk. idk if i'll finish it or not though, i had started a book called "Life Freaks Me Out: And Then I Deal With It" and it was basically this adult who had written a book about what it's like to be a teenager and stuff. it was interesting at first, but then i got bored with it, so i never finishe it (oh, and i'm not going to be putting unfinished books on the book list). that might be how it is with this book, idk, we'll see

so it turns out that the lady never showed today, she supposedly had stuff to do but at least she called. not on time, but at least she called. she set up another appointment for thursday. *rolls eyes* of course, it could be what my mom thinks, that she's just been busy and still wants to meet cuz she keeps calling back, but idk. im not so sure about her yet

the kids got hair cuts today too. my mom did them outside. they're cute, they look a little different than normal, not in a bad way though, just different. anyways, before they came in for baths i was working on my cross stitch, so that's what ima go do now. oh, and listen to my ipod as well, cuz music rocks!

p.s. check out my myspace, i changed it =]

the start of cosmic city

so today was the first day of VBS. me and my sister woke up at 7, left at 8:30 (christian's tooth still isn't feeling good and brandon wouldn't go by himself, so they didn't go) got there around 8:45 and got her signed in and everything. then i found mike, cuz he had come in when i was getting my siste signed in. he was helping in the kitchen, so i went in there and bugged him lol. he was putting this chocolate popcorn/marshmallow mix in cups for snacks and then made lemonade (i helped somewhat with that....not much tho lol) and then we took the lemondae and ice down to the back classroom where i guess all the snack times were gonna be held. mr. eric then asked us to help take the rocks that the kids painted to the sprung. at first we just took two each (cuz that's all we could carry) and put them in the sprung, but then mike got smart and we put them all on a cart! so he was the cart pusher and i was the unloader and door holder lol. the rest of the time we just kinda goofed off with whoever else (ray, ashley, alyssa, miss barbara, etc.) we had to keep going and checking on the rocks though cuz we had to take them after each class. it was pretty cool, it was fun =] and my sister had fun so yup uyp. then we walked home and here i am. i've cooled off a bit though cuz we've been here for a bit. but i wsa all hot and sweaty lol .

aww, poor kevin =( he doesn't feel good today, so he stayed home from school ( i think?). so he's not coming over today, which he doesnt need to cuz he needs to rest. poor baby. hope he gets to feelin better soon!

and we're supposed to have someone over for babysittting today, but i dont think it's gonna work out. nobody's shown up since we stopped keeping Kiya, so idk....i think we're getting kiya back next month though, so we'll see

Book List

so i thought it'd be a cool idea to make a book list of all the books i've read =] it obviously won't be every single book i've ever read in my lifetime ('cuz i can't remember all those) but i think it'll be pretty cool. i'll add each new book after i read it too.

A Child Called It - Dave Pelzer
A Cup of Comfort for Mothers and Daughters - Colleen Sell
A Dog Called Kitty - Bill Wallace
A Lifetime of Secrets - Frank Warren
A Man Named Dave - Dave Pelzer
A Mother's Gift - Britney & Lynne Spears
A Non-Blonde Cheerleader In Love - Kieran Scott
A Song for Jeffery - Constance M. Foland
Alice, I Think - Susan Juby
Animal Emergency (books 1 & 6) - Emily Costello
Anne Frank: A Hidden Life - Mirjam Pressler
Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret - Judy Blume
Babysitter's Club: Friends Forever - Ann M. Martin
Best Friends - Martha Moody
Between Mom and Jo - Julie Anne Peters
Beyond Tuesday Morning - Karen Kingsbury
Black-eyed Susie - Susan Shaw
Bound - Donna Jo Napoli
Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyer
Breathless - Lurlene McDaniel
Broken Flower - V.C. Andrews
California Diaries (book 1) - Ann M. Martin
Cedar River Daydreams (books 7 & 8) - Judy Baer
ChaseR - Michael J. Rosen
Chicken Soup for the Couplle's Soul - Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, Mark & Chrissy Donnelly, and Barbara De Angelis
Chocolate for a Teen's Spirit - Kay Allen Baugh
Cirque Du Freak (books 1-5) - Darren Shan
Clearwater Crossing Series (all 20 books plus 'The Diaries') - Laura Peyton Roberts
Cruise Control - Terry Trueman
Cut - Patricia McCormick
Dateable - Justin Lookadoo & Hayley DiMarco
Demon in my View - Amelia Atwater-Rhodes
Diary of a Teenage Girl: Caitlin (books 1-2) - Melody Carlson
Diary of a Teenage Girl: Chloe (book 2) - Melody Carlson
Eclipse - Stephenie Meyer
Every Young Woman's Battle - Shannon Ethridge & Stephen Arterburn
Fat Kid Rules the World - K. L. Going
Gangsta Rap - Benjamin Zephaniah
Harry Potter (books 1-5) - J.K. Rowling
Hero - Perry Moore
Hinds' Feet on High Places - Hannah Hurnard
Holes - Louis Sachar
Hush - Donna Jo Napoli
I Am The Messenger - Markus Zusak
Inside Out - Terry Trueman
Jesusfreaks: Volume 1 - dc Talk
Klepto - Lori Weber
Left Behind (book 1) - Jerry B. Jenkins & Tim LaHaye
Left Behind >The Kids< (books 1-26) - Jerry B. Jenkins & Tim LaHaye
Lucy The Giant - Sherri L. Smith
Mates, Dates, and Inflatable Bras - Cathy Hopkins
My Secret - Frank Warren
New Moon - Stephenie Meyer
Nightmares & Dreamscapes - Stephen King
Night World No. 1 - L. J. Smith
Night World No. 2 - L. J. Smith
No Right Turn - Terry Trueman
Notes on a Near-Life Experience - Olivia Birdsall
One Shot - Susan Glick
One Tuesday Morning - Karen Kingsbury
PostSecret - Frank Warren
Prey - Lurlene McDaniel
Prisoners of Hope - Dayna Curry & Heather Mercer
Raise the Flag (book 1) - Nancy Rue
Rules for Life - Darlene Ryan
Samuel - Robert J. Hastings
Scattered Leaves - V.C. Andrews
Searching for David's Heart - Cherie Bennett
Secret Storm - Yvonne Lehman
Seven Deadly Sins: Greed - Robin Wasserman
Sideways Stories From Wayside School - Louis Sachar
Sierra Jenson Series (books 6,7, and 9) - Robin Jones Gunn
Smashed - Koren Zailckas
Stranger in the Chat Room - Todd & Jedd Hafer
Stuck in Neutral - Terry Trueman
Sunset Glitter - Cherie Bennett
The Burn Journals - Brent Runyon
The Chronicles of Narnia: The lion, The Witch, And The Wardrobe - C. S. Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magician's Nephew - C. S. Lewis
The Clique - Lisi Harrison
The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things - Carolyn Mackler
The Fallen (The Nine Lives of Chole King Series) - Celia Thomson
The Girlfriend Project - Robin Friedman
The Invention of Hugo Cabret - Brian Selznick
The Killer's Cousin - Nancy Werlin
The Lost Boy - Dave Pelzer
The Old Man and the Sea - Ernest Hemingway
The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
The Window - Jeanette Ingold
Things Change - Patrick Jones
Tips on Having a Gay (ex) Boyfriend - Carrie Jones
True Colors Series (books 1, 3, 4, & 9) - Melody Carlson
Twilight - Stephenie Meyer
Twisted - Jonathan Kellerman
Wayside School is Falling Down - Louis Sachar
Wayside School Gets a Little Stranger - Louis Sachar
We're Not Monsters: Teens Speak Out About Teens In Trouble - Sabrina Solin Weill
WILD AT HEART vet volunteers (book 2) - Laurie Halse Anderson

while the rest of them dudes was a gettin' their kicks

well today's been quite the day...i'm really tired, but i'm eatin some popcorn cuz im hungry, so i thought id update be fore bed

so earlier my dad picked me up and i drove to my brother's house (which is really easy to get to! i actually know how to get to someone's house now without directions, lol, although i think i could od a pretty good job coming home from my dad's house by myself) and we pretty much played rockband all day. we went and had lunch with rachel around 4. mike had come over a little before that to drop off a dresser for jon, and he played a few songs. he came back later with my mom and the kids. christian played the bass, brandon the drums, and brianna sang, and they all did really good for their first time!! bran was a lil bi hard on the drums, bu other than that, it was kew. we stayed there FOREVER though..... i was ready to leave there a few hours b4 we left lol. but it was fun. oh! me and my dad and jon made a band, and we named it Tainted Cheese, lol, =] i also made my own character, her name is Tink

and then when we left, or just as we were about to leave rather, guess who calls? my ex....i think he's trying to stir up trouble. not only with me, but my friend as well. idk, i haven't had a very good feeling about him lately. well mainly tonight, lol, but still. he asked me the other day if me and kevin weren't together would we still be friends? i didn't answer him cuz i didn't want him actin stupid and tryin to break me and kevin up or anything, but honestly, i dont know if we would be. hes always causing some kind of drama...ironically, like my first ex did....but anyways

i finished Lucy the Giant! good book....i think the ending could have been a little better, but he plot in general was interesting =] now ima gonna start this book called The Girlfriend Project. i dont know what its about though.

but anyways, its late, im tired, and i have church in the morning...so gnite folks, talk to you in the near future

talk talk talk

so i've had alot on my mind latley. of ocurse, at the time i was thinking about all of this i was busy with something else, so you probably won't here most of it. i'm just going to talk about things as they come to mind, nothing in any particular order

firstly, the other day when i was at my dad's house, me and my dad were playing rockband. right after our song ended we heard a noise (to me it sounded like a toy police siren) that turned out to be the fire alarm downstairs. well as soon as we heard it, we went to investigate right? well my stepmom, belinda, was playing her game (WoW) and she said that the alarm had been going for a good 30 seconds before anyone wentto check on it....so why didn't she go check on it?? the house could have been burning down and she just sat there because she was in the middle of playing her game, and then she acted like she was mad at us when she's the one who heard it first! idk....i've just really been thinking about that. i think she plays that game waaaaaaaaay too much, it's literally all she does apart from work, sleeping, and eating. my dad used to be that way with it and so was i to an extent, but we've both grown outof it. my dad still plays, but only for an hour or two ata time and then he goes and does something else. i think it's unhealthy for her. (oh, in case you were wondering, there was something burning on the stove that made the fire alarm go off, but there was no fire)

for some reason all of my ex-boyfriends have contacted me within the past few weeks. well, tried to at least. i only replied to two of them. but now i won't be talking to any of them. one of them keeps telling me that he still likes me even though i told him i was with someone, and i got tired of it, so if he txts me again im just gonna ignore him. i mean i havent even seen or tlaked to the guy in what...overa year at least? the other two both messaged me on myspace. one of them said he was sorry and he just wanted me to forgive him and because of the problems that would arise if we started talking, that would be the last time i heard from him. so i did reply to him and i told him that i did forgive him, that ive been wanting to tell him that but like he said, us tlaking causes too many problems. so i said that i forgave him and that i hope thigns work out the best for him and he replied back later saying thankyou and that as he promised, i wouldn't have to worry about him talkin to me anymore. and then the other one was a complete surprise! i never would have thought he would have tried contacting me again. basically he said that he mises talking to me and he knows that he screwed up and doesnt expect me to reply and yada yada yada. i didnt reply to him though (for those of you were wondering, this is the one i wrote Branded for). you know, it's really hard to be friends with an ex. no matter how hard you try (for me at least) it never works out. and you start thinking about them every now and then and wonderign what's going on with them and how life is treating them and such....but at the same time you know you cant really ask. it bring up way too many unsettled things. so yea....just thought id share thought cuz i thought it was weird that ive heard from all three of them in the past few weeks

and then ive got a couple friends who are having some difficult moments right now. which that's gotta be really hard on them.....and i never really know what to say to them...or if theres anything that i can say to them....

oh, and another friend of mine likes one of my exes. she said they aren't going to go out though because she's not supposed to and he's always at work anyways, but i hear that they've been talking alot

me and kevin are doing really good! though we haven't been talking quite as much as we used to...that makes me sad . but i think it's cuz we really don't have anything to talk about. sometimes we do, sometimes we can talk off and on all day....but other days we hardly talk at all... idk. but i really love him and things are still really good between us so i hope that they stay that way =]

last night we had church, even though the rest of the kids are camp.....and i was gonan tell you what we did but i just remembered that i already did....but i didnt tell you that jason asked me how the xcelerate website was going. i told him that it was actually really dissappointing because nobody ever comes to it. to which kevin replied "yea cuz you blocked it" and i kinda got an attitude with him lol. i was all like yea but i sent everyone invvites and the only person who has accepted is julie. and i said some other stuff, i dont remember what, but hes like "ok im sorry" lol...i think he mainly said it just so id shut up though lol. but oh well...

i've been working on my cross-stitch today! it's really cool to see how it grows as you keep doing more and more of it =] i als oplayedd guitar hero last night (and i plan to play again tonight) i started a solo career. my band name is Tink Inc. haha. im gonna beat it on east first (even though i normally play on medium) and then medium and then hard and so on....ive already started unlocking stuff but i havent bought anything yet

oh! i started reading this book called "Lucy The Giant" and so far it's realyl good. basically, this girl who lives in alaska has a drunk for a father, her mom left them, shes like 6 feet tall, and feels like she doesn't belong. she found this dog and shes started taking care of it but shes been hiding it from her dad cuz he doesn't like them but then she thinks it might die so she has to ask him for money so she can take it to the vet...thats as far as i am lol

so i watched the secret life yesterday, it's a good show! it's like awww man, its over already?? and you cant wait for the next episode. well, i think so at least. my mom isn't so into it. but i also started recording Queen Bees....or i will be when it actually premeires lol....i dont really know what its about tho so yea

so i went and fed the pups again today. omg! they are sooo hyper when i first get there! lol they are crazy!! when i went back tonight they had gotten into their food bag. there wasn't much left in the first place but there was even less because they had been eating it. so i didn't give them any more food tonight, i'll give them the rest in the morning. and they still had water but i rinsed the bowls out and gave them fresh. and i threw the ball a few times and rubbed on them and stuff. then i couldnt get out the gate lol. the door gets caught at the moment so its kinda hard to open, form both sides, but especially from the inside.

my mom and i started this emailing game caleld scrabulous....its like scrabble really, just through email. its kew =]

for some reason i've been obsessed with the "gay" topic latley. i think it's mostly cuz of this guy at church who im pretty sure is gay. and theres nothing wrong with that, it's just not right in God's eyes. but he still lvoes him, gay or not. but ive been asking my friends if they would care if their future child grew up to be gay, bi, or lesbian, and ive been getting different reactions to that. my answer is that at first i would be a little .... ummm.....i cant think of the right word..... off (?) about it, but then i would get over it because its my kid you know, and ill love them no matter what they do or who they are so yea

i've got a few more topics that i could talk about, but im tired of typing, so maybe another time...later...thanks for reading if you've read this far

lets jam

so i just got back from church and such, it was fun, there were only like 12 of us there, and mr. jason, and we played this game that i can't really describe lol...but it wwas fun! i laughed alot, haha, and then we did the lesson. after church i went to feed and water (haha im watering the dogs...) miss julies dogs, they were THIRSTY!! like dude! lol and they got my jeans all wet and icky, cuz they licked them lol

so now im home. and guess what? my mom and mike got me guitar hero for the ds!!!!!!!! yay!!!! so ima go play now, lol, so later

say it ain't so

so last night, jon and rachel came over to my dad's house and the four us played eyetoy and rockband, it was pretty cool! we played for like 5 hours, lol. since there were only 3 instruments that could be used at a tiem, we just switched off. we also hooked up both microphones and we did duels with that, it was nice =] u got home at like 12:40 haha

and today this lady is supposed to be coming over for babysitting. she called earlier but we havent heard from her since, so we arnt sure yet.

got the gerbils' cage all nice and cleaned! i bet they like that, they always go exploring after i clean it lol. i gave them each a frosted cheerio this morning, they seemed to like it.

anyways, thats about it so i'll talk to yalls later!

peace out

yay!!

yay!!! we're completley done! FINALLY!!! we have a game room that is set up all nice and neat, with a couch and a bed for sitting, with {clean} pillows and blankets, and then we have my room, also with a bed for sitting, and sleeping, with {clean} pillows and blankets, and we hung up all my pictures, and we fixed the vacumm and vacummed real good and it's awesome!!! tomorrow i'll prolyl set things up how i want the mand stuff, but for now, im grabbin some pizza and goin to lay down, im whooped

a&w cream soda

so i'm waiting for my dad to get home so we can finish switching the rooms around....i did alot today. i moved all my stuff (minus the bed) into jon's old room, and i moved all jon's stuff and anything else (again, minus the bed) into my old room. took a little while to do, but i did it, i even moved the desk. i hung up the pics from jon's room in the 'game room' and i hung up my dragon sword and mirror in my room. i took all the sheets and blankets out of jon's room and i washed them...i'm actually still washing the blankets, they take longer to dry so yea...but the rest of the sheets and stuff are clean. i also tried to vacummn in there, but the vacumm kinda sucks, so it didn't help a whole lot...it did manage to get a lot of dog hair off the floor tho...so yea, now all that neds to be done is the beds need to be switched and the t.v. needs to be moved, then we can start arranging the game room how we want it and i can do my room how i want it, and hang up all my pictures and stuff. i'll prolly ask my dad to help me with that part though.

other than that i havn't done much. i did paint my nails this morning though. both my toes and fingers and kind of a torquiose colour, it's kew. and i had some pizza earlier...prolly get some more in a min, and a new drink as well. and i;ll go watch some t.v. or something. idk yet....anyways, i added some new quotes, so check 'em out.

reproductive glands

wow...its been a long, but fun, day! mostly i hung out with my dad, we played rockband alot. and then we went to get pizza (yes, i drove) and when we came home we watched like 4 hours of the incredible hulk! surprisingly, i like it....it's really quite interesting. i was so into it that i actually jumped once lol.

we're switching rooms tomorrow =] because rockband is set up right above maymes room, the drums bother her, and so we got this idea that if we changed the room it was in, it would be better...sooooo, we're making my room the game room, and im taking jon's old room! yay =] i always wanted that room anyways, and i like the idea of moving into a new room. prolly have to vaccumm and stuff, make it all clean and whatnot, but it'll be kew! it doesn't smell in there anymore (it did when the rats were in there) so it's all good

i also washed all my towels and rags, so i have clean...wel, towels and rags lol. and i did my nails...well my toes at least...too late to do my fingers tonight, maybe tomorrow. and ive been working on my cross-stitch too....it's been a productive day =]

oh!! miss julie (one of my youth leaders at church) is gonna be gone at camp and she needs someone to feed her puppies, so i'm going to do it!! from wed night til friday morn. ill just go around back and use the hose for their water bowls and she said they'll put the food out there in a bag or something so i can justfill their food up. should be fun fun!

well, im tired, and i gotta get things ready to move tomorrow so ima go to bed, gnite my loves, sweet dreams

a happy troll

yay, im clean! lol

my dad opened his gift, he seemed to really like it =] he kinda looked like a little kid when he was opening it, trying to guess what it was and stuff, lol

over the hill, too old to count

yup, me my dad, clark, and aaron (clarks son) went to see hancock last night, it was a really good movie!! i had no idea what it was about so i was expecting it to be serious, like I Am Legend, but it was more comical than that, i also didnt expect it to be a superhero movie, lol, but yea it was really good, i'd buy it! and omg! aaron has grown up ALOT! idk how old he is now, but he got tall! his voice hasn't changed yet, lol, but he sure is growing up

so anyways, today is my dads birthday =] i told him happy birthday and gave him his present but hes in the middle of a dungeon with belinda so he cant open it right now. so he'll open it in a little bit. and then we'll prolly hang out! so i should really go take a shower so i can be ready lol

yup yup yup, thats about it, so talk to yall later, love you kevin!

peter piper

yay!! we went to the library and got our cards renewed ^.^ so now i have some new books to read!

we also went to braums and to walmart to get some stuff for dinner, and then i peeled potatoes so we can have mashed taters later, yum!

yea, thats it, lol, bye

picky picky

so i hope everyone had a happy 4th yesterday!

ive been working on my cross-stitch alot the past 2 days, i've gotten a lot done actually, i think i can finish it b4 christmas if i stick with it, the hard part is going to be the details, so yea

kevin is at his uncles house today for his little cousins 3rd birthday! thats cool =] hes cute...little blue-eyed blonde-haired boy

ummm...there's really not much to talk about right now,...im going to my dads house later tonight. we might go see Hancock with Clark (my dad's magic partner and family friend). kevin saw it yesterday, he said it was good

thats really about it...i just wanted to type something lol, so here ya go! later

the number 9

i dont really have anything to say right now...i just dislike the number 9...and if its at the end of a number....so this way ill have 20 posts instead of 19....call me strange, but it bothers me....anywho lol

fajita time!

so i got my dads birthday gift! it's the first season of the incredilbe hulk tv show! i hope he likes it =]

i also got some beads and cord to make some more keychain cats =] so that should be fun. ill prolly take it to my dads house and work on it there and whatnot. oh! i got a thimble for cross-stitching too!! cuz the needle keeps hurting my ring finger, so now, with the thimble, it doesn't hurt anymore, yay me!! oh, im now working on an angel for my grandma, hopefully for christmas if i can get it done in time for that. we'll see

in the kitchen, some yummy yummy food is being made!!! wel, in the kitchen and on the grill, lol. fajitas!! they're soooo good the way my mom makes them!!! can't wait! im hungry lol

mikes brother and family are in for the weekend too. the kids seem to be enjoying this alot cuz they have someone to play with now. anyways, thats it for now!

later

a mother is a special thing

Wow! I think my cat, Elmo, is pregnant!! I don't know for sure because I'm not a vet or anything, but she feels like it and she looks like it, and her nipples are waaaaaaay obvious. They never used to be like that. So I'm pretty sure she's going to be a mommy in the near future!! How cool is that?

freedom isn't free, someone pays for you and me

So it's the Fourth of July. I really don't know what I'm going to do today. =/

But I do want to say thanks to all those who have fought, are fighting, and will fight in the future for our freedom. Yall are so brave and if it weren't for you guys, it wouldn't be a free country. So thank you, so so much!

And I guess that's it for now, so happy Fourth of July!

i heart cats

It's late. It's 1:08 in the a.m. yet I'm still up. I really should be getting to sleep, but I'm really not that tired, so I don't think I could sleep anyway.

I finished the cross-stitch I told yall about. It looks pretty cool. I just have to iron it and get a frame for it and then I can give it to Mayme. I don't know if I'm going to start anything else right now or not though. It might just have been a one night thing (i guess you could say one night stand lol). I guess we'll find out within the next few days right?

I also need to get some cord and some beads that are all the same color and type, that way I can make some more cat keychains, because those are really cool! I don't remember where I put the directions though, so I'll have to find those.

I watched Supernanny earlier and wow! That's some crazy stuff. There were 5 kids (my family has 5 kids as well, but we're a little more spaced out than these ones were). The oldest one was 9, then 8, then twins who were 6, then 5. And they had soooo many activities to do! But supernanny helped sort that out and I guess things are better now.

I was thinking about this song earlier and I would tell you my thoughts about it, but I don't really feel like finding the lyrics and telling my thoughts. I'm too lazy right now, so maybe tomorrow or something.

Tomorrow's the 4th! Fireworks and stuff, yay! Mike's brother and family are suposed to be coming in. I don't know what time though.

Oh, I saw that someone posted a comment on my thing. That was really cool to see (=]) even though I don't know who it was because it was annonimous lol (yea, I donit think that's how it's spelled, but oh well).

You know when you really want to talk to someone about something, but somehow you just know they won't understand and so you end up not talking to them about it? Yea, I wanted to do that with Mike tonight (different Mike, this is my friend Mike, Mike D.), but I asked him if he's ever felt that way before and he was like no, not really, so I just dropped it because I knew he wouldn't understand. I've done that with my boyfriend before too. Over something different though.

I like typing. Don't ask me why, I just do. I like the sound of the keys, its cool. =] I really don't even have anything left to say, lol, I'm just typing so I don't have to stop typing. But that's ok right? Lol. Right, because no one can tell me otherwise. Well I guess they could, but it wouldn't do any good. But anywho...

I guess I really should be going now. I bet this post is pretty long, haha. Anway, I guess I'm going to bed so g'nite!

p.s. I just noticed that I now have 8 posts for each month so far, haha. My sister has more posts in just one month than all mine put together. She had like 22 posts or something for one month. I didn't check the other one.

Oh, did yall see America's Got Talent?? Well I was on myspace earlier and they showed Busty Heart (Hart...whatever) and they actually showed her 'crushing objects with her boobs'. Very disturbing. Anyway, g'nite, lol.

don't be held back

Awwww....I just watched the end of America's Got Talent, and there's this little autistic boy who sings. He sings beautifully!! It's amazing! Sweetest thing ever!

I also got out my craft bag and I was gonna do some latch hook, but then I found a cross-stitch that I had almost finished but never did. So I'm finishing that first. I think im gonna give it to Mayme (my step-grandma?) when I'm done with it. It says "I Heart (it's an actual heart) CATS" and its got like 4 or 5 cats on it. So yup yup. Then when I'm done with that we'll see what else I make.

I really want to go to the library because I kind of feel like reading something new. But I've got to go with my mom because our cards are expired, so maybe I should remind her so we can go and get them unexpired, lol.

'superswap'

I've been watching Wife Swap and Supernanny for the past few weeks now, and I've come to realize that families are either one of two things: they're either too strict or not strict enough. When I have my own kids (heck, let alone my own house), I want it to be more like my family than anything else. Yes, it's strict, but not too strict. The house (for the most part) stays clean, but at the same time, it's not overwhelming. We have fun, we spend time together. Strict, but not too strict. That's how I want my family to be. I want to teach my kids how to take care of themselves, to watch out for possible dangers, work for what they want, to have fun and be happy! If you're not strict enough with your kids, they won't learn anything. If you're too strict, they're gonna learn to despise you and be uptight with everything.

I just watched the latest episode of Wife Swap. This one family was a family of magicians and they allowed their kids to flag down cars and show them tricks. One word for you. DANGEROUS. You never, NEVER let your kid flag down a car, especially if they don't know who's in it, for any reason....unless they're lost or something, but still, that's a stretch. But then the other family was the exact opposite. Their kids couldn't go outside by themselves and they were like 10 and 13 or something. Crazy crazy...

Anyway, just a rant, lol.

doomsday

So I'm like majorly tired. I figured out where my mom went. First she went to see the babysitting lady, because it turns out she couldn't come over here. So my mom went to them. She said the baby was really cute (thats always a plus lol) and supposedly we're gonna start keeping him Monday or Tuesday. We'll see about that. Anyway, she also went to get dinner, yum.

So right now I'm waiting for my brother to finish in the bathroom so he can take a bath. And that's about it really. Yea...

overheated

So it's Wednesday which means that there was church today, yay! So Kevin came over around three and I kicked his butt in Monopoly, lol, and we just chilled at my house for a bit. And then my sister and Kevin and I went to church. I guess my sister had a food fight today for her class. And we just had our normal thing. It was good except for the not feeling good and getting really really hot part. But other than that, it was a typical Wednesday.

Originally there wasn't supposed to be church next week because of youth camp, but Mr. Kitty is going to stay and he said we're going to do something, yay! Lol.

Not much happened today really. School, chores, the norm. And then of course church and stuff. The lady for babysitting called today and my mom gave her the directions and everything. I don't know if she actually showed up though, because I wasn't here. So I have to ask my mom that in a little bit. I don't know where she is right now, not at home, lol.

This is cool! I'm typing without looking at the keyboard, haha. Not doing that great of a job because I keep having to backspace, but oh well. Yeah, that was amusing to me so lol.

Anyway, I'm going to go watch tv. Laters.

laminin

So I just watched this guy, Louie, talk about laminin and wow! That's just totally amazing. It's just wow! If you haven't seen the video, go to youtube and search for laminin. Watch the 8:44 long one. It's really amazing! It really makes you think as well.

this is me

I think I always knew deep down that I hated you, but I never admitted it. I put up with all of your shit. I helped you when you needed me. I was always there for you. But in the end, it was you making my life hell and there's not a damn thing I can do to take back anything I did or said. Not even our friendship.

- unknown

I came across this quote the other day on my hunt for "awesome quotes" (it's actually on that thread too lol) and it reminded me of a past boyfriend. If you know anything about my past, then you proably know who I'm talking about. It's the same guy i wrote "Branded" for. And I think it's really true. I mean, I don't think I actually 'hate' him, but I do think he was making my life hell. There was just way too many problems with us. I still wonder what it would be like if we were still friends. And honestly, I think I would be alot less happy. I'm glad that we aren't friends any more. Things starting looking up for me when I called it quits with him, and I'm sorry if that sounds mean, but it's really really true. I hope that things work out best for him, but I don't want to have any kind of relationship with him again, friends or not.

Just my thoughts when I saw this quote, thought that I would share.

Apart from that, I watched The Secret Life of the American Teenager tonight (in future references I'm going to call it either 'The Secret Life' or 'Secret Life') and it was really good. It looks like a promising tv series. I've always wanted a show that I could want to watch all the time you know. Like there's all those Lost fanatics and stuff, but I wanted my own show. And I think I finally found one. Basically, it's about...well alot of people really. All teenagers going through teenage things...cheating, lying, teenage pregnancy...it sounds really interesting. I could see myself crying while watching it in the future.

Anyway, I'm tired. I've got to give baths here in a bit when my sister finally gets out of the bathroom. Other than that there's not much going on. Oh, except for the fact that the babysitting person didn't show up. She rescheduled for tomorrow *rolls eyes*. So we'll see if she actually shows or not. And I think that really is it this time, so later.

don't worry, be happy

Well it turns out that Braum's isn't going to work out right now. I called around 12:10 and Craig said that he had already hired a bunch of new people so he wasn't doing any more interviews right now, but to call back in 2 or 3 weeks and see if he had an opening. So that's what I'm going to do. I'll call him in like 3 weeks or so and see if there's an opening. Hopefully there will be by then!

I also got a letter back from Highlights magazine. I had sent them a story of mine so they could publish it in one of their future issues. So they mailed me back and they said that my story doesn't fit their needs right now, but don't be discouraged.

So that's what I'm doing! I'm just trying to think optismitcally about everything instead of pessimistically. I don't even know if that's how those are spelled, lol, but oh well.

But anyway, my mom supposedly has an interview today at 5 for babysitting. Hopefully this time they'll actually show. They havn't been showing (which is why i said supposedly) so maybe this time will be different. I hope so because she's been pretty bummed about it.

Oh, my old youth leader texted me today!!! We havn't talked in like forever! He's getting married in August!!! That's so cool!!!!

Yup yup yup...well i should do chores now lol. Later.