talk talk talk

so i've had alot on my mind latley. of ocurse, at the time i was thinking about all of this i was busy with something else, so you probably won't here most of it. i'm just going to talk about things as they come to mind, nothing in any particular order

firstly, the other day when i was at my dad's house, me and my dad were playing rockband. right after our song ended we heard a noise (to me it sounded like a toy police siren) that turned out to be the fire alarm downstairs. well as soon as we heard it, we went to investigate right? well my stepmom, belinda, was playing her game (WoW) and she said that the alarm had been going for a good 30 seconds before anyone wentto check on it....so why didn't she go check on it?? the house could have been burning down and she just sat there because she was in the middle of playing her game, and then she acted like she was mad at us when she's the one who heard it first! idk....i've just really been thinking about that. i think she plays that game waaaaaaaaay too much, it's literally all she does apart from work, sleeping, and eating. my dad used to be that way with it and so was i to an extent, but we've both grown outof it. my dad still plays, but only for an hour or two ata time and then he goes and does something else. i think it's unhealthy for her. (oh, in case you were wondering, there was something burning on the stove that made the fire alarm go off, but there was no fire)

for some reason all of my ex-boyfriends have contacted me within the past few weeks. well, tried to at least. i only replied to two of them. but now i won't be talking to any of them. one of them keeps telling me that he still likes me even though i told him i was with someone, and i got tired of it, so if he txts me again im just gonna ignore him. i mean i havent even seen or tlaked to the guy in what...overa year at least? the other two both messaged me on myspace. one of them said he was sorry and he just wanted me to forgive him and because of the problems that would arise if we started talking, that would be the last time i heard from him. so i did reply to him and i told him that i did forgive him, that ive been wanting to tell him that but like he said, us tlaking causes too many problems. so i said that i forgave him and that i hope thigns work out the best for him and he replied back later saying thankyou and that as he promised, i wouldn't have to worry about him talkin to me anymore. and then the other one was a complete surprise! i never would have thought he would have tried contacting me again. basically he said that he mises talking to me and he knows that he screwed up and doesnt expect me to reply and yada yada yada. i didnt reply to him though (for those of you were wondering, this is the one i wrote Branded for). you know, it's really hard to be friends with an ex. no matter how hard you try (for me at least) it never works out. and you start thinking about them every now and then and wonderign what's going on with them and how life is treating them and such....but at the same time you know you cant really ask. it bring up way too many unsettled things. so yea....just thought id share thought cuz i thought it was weird that ive heard from all three of them in the past few weeks

and then ive got a couple friends who are having some difficult moments right now. which that's gotta be really hard on them.....and i never really know what to say to them...or if theres anything that i can say to them....

oh, and another friend of mine likes one of my exes. she said they aren't going to go out though because she's not supposed to and he's always at work anyways, but i hear that they've been talking alot

me and kevin are doing really good! though we haven't been talking quite as much as we used to...that makes me sad . but i think it's cuz we really don't have anything to talk about. sometimes we do, sometimes we can talk off and on all day....but other days we hardly talk at all... idk. but i really love him and things are still really good between us so i hope that they stay that way =]

last night we had church, even though the rest of the kids are camp.....and i was gonan tell you what we did but i just remembered that i already did....but i didnt tell you that jason asked me how the xcelerate website was going. i told him that it was actually really dissappointing because nobody ever comes to it. to which kevin replied "yea cuz you blocked it" and i kinda got an attitude with him lol. i was all like yea but i sent everyone invvites and the only person who has accepted is julie. and i said some other stuff, i dont remember what, but hes like "ok im sorry" lol...i think he mainly said it just so id shut up though lol. but oh well...

i've been working on my cross-stitch today! it's really cool to see how it grows as you keep doing more and more of it =] i als oplayedd guitar hero last night (and i plan to play again tonight) i started a solo career. my band name is Tink Inc. haha. im gonna beat it on east first (even though i normally play on medium) and then medium and then hard and so on....ive already started unlocking stuff but i havent bought anything yet

oh! i started reading this book called "Lucy The Giant" and so far it's realyl good. basically, this girl who lives in alaska has a drunk for a father, her mom left them, shes like 6 feet tall, and feels like she doesn't belong. she found this dog and shes started taking care of it but shes been hiding it from her dad cuz he doesn't like them but then she thinks it might die so she has to ask him for money so she can take it to the vet...thats as far as i am lol

so i watched the secret life yesterday, it's a good show! it's like awww man, its over already?? and you cant wait for the next episode. well, i think so at least. my mom isn't so into it. but i also started recording Queen Bees....or i will be when it actually premeires lol....i dont really know what its about tho so yea

so i went and fed the pups again today. omg! they are sooo hyper when i first get there! lol they are crazy!! when i went back tonight they had gotten into their food bag. there wasn't much left in the first place but there was even less because they had been eating it. so i didn't give them any more food tonight, i'll give them the rest in the morning. and they still had water but i rinsed the bowls out and gave them fresh. and i threw the ball a few times and rubbed on them and stuff. then i couldnt get out the gate lol. the door gets caught at the moment so its kinda hard to open, form both sides, but especially from the inside.

my mom and i started this emailing game caleld scrabulous....its like scrabble really, just through email. its kew =]

for some reason i've been obsessed with the "gay" topic latley. i think it's mostly cuz of this guy at church who im pretty sure is gay. and theres nothing wrong with that, it's just not right in God's eyes. but he still lvoes him, gay or not. but ive been asking my friends if they would care if their future child grew up to be gay, bi, or lesbian, and ive been getting different reactions to that. my answer is that at first i would be a little .... ummm.....i cant think of the right word..... off (?) about it, but then i would get over it because its my kid you know, and ill love them no matter what they do or who they are so yea

i've got a few more topics that i could talk about, but im tired of typing, so maybe another time...later...thanks for reading if you've read this far